For now. Hopefully, for long.

Sometimes, I feel sad. Or was it unhappy? Numb? I don’t even know. I tend to just spew all my insecurities, worries, problems, ramblings onto my boyfriend without a second thought about how he might feel. I took advantage of the fact that he would not judge me for who I am, that he loves me regardless of what happens and that I can basically do no wrong towards him. He treats me like a queen.

And yet.

I hurt him. Not on purpose and I think that’s worse because I know that he deserves better. Can I be better? Can I give him the future that I think he deserves to have? I’m not sure. I don’t think I can but I want to try. I would hate to fail.

So, here goes nothing. Day 1 of a better me, a better us.

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